

When I used to dream about having kids I imagined sitting around reading to them and teaching them about important values, God, and how to be strong women. I have had a rough 2 years emotionally and have not had all the visions that I used to dream about come true. I was feeling beaten down but hangin' on.I had a pivotal day this weekend because I decided not to let circumstances cheat me any longer. I have such a strong desire to be an amazing mom and I choose now to go full force. I went back to church this weekend feeling broken and came out feeling alive. I went directly into the bookstore and bought a children's devotional book. The girls were so excited to have a new book and even more excited to have a new activity. We decided to sit together every morning and read one of the stories, talk about it, and possibly do the craft it includes. This is such an awesome book!! It is just at their level and they love it! Ali threw a fit at like 6 am yesterday because she woke up and wanted me to get up at 6 and read them their story! Uh...no! Sorry..I'm not THAT gung ho!! :-) I love my girls with all my heart and just hope and pray that I can be as good of a mom as the role models that I know and have known throughout the years.